Lemurick pt5

Lemurick embarked on DecidingFate with anxiety and excitement. For once in his life he seemed to be important and wanted. Many voices clamoured for his ear, though none cared for his well-being, but rather for their own gain. These people flattered and gave generously for a season in hopes of keeping you and promptly forgot their promises once they had you. At first Lemurick became foolishly puffed up with a false lie of self-importance and stupidly followed them, all of them. He chased any leader who offered him bribe or promise of fame. Fortunately, this did not last long as Lemurick came to see the truth. Trying to follow everyone would do nothing but keep him where he was now: in a terrible state of anonymity. He was at a loss. As he was not exceptional at anything, what could he pursue to lift himself from this pit of horrible commonness? He became bitterly depressed because he could see no way out.

Lemurick continued like this for some time until he concluded that since he had not been blessed by luck (that cruel force that unfairly gives everything to some and nothing to others) to have any talents or good qualities, he would resign to it. He decided now that he would never be seen as great by the masses. He must devote his energies to finding and keeping just one person who will see his greatness. This seemed to him to be one the cleverest plans that any common man could ever devise. He was quite pleased with himself and started to write a list of qualities this person must have, both to be liked by Lemurick and to find himself likable. Having fashioned the list so (which erred, as such lists often do, on the side of being far too picky and unattainable-there existed no person either Lemurick's time or now who could live up to such a list), Lemurick set off to search among his colleagues for a woman who would love him and see him as great all his life. The eager Lemurick could not have foreseen the difficulties in this task. It seemed to him a simple and wonderful job, but it turned out to be horrible, exhausting and very defeating. No woman wanted to connect herself with him as he would not add but rather subtract from her own pursuit of greatness.