Lemurick pt6

Lemurick's ardent faith in his plan and list slowly dwindled as he was rejected time and again. He gradually and wisely cut things from his list of "necessary qualities". The first to go were "unsurpassed beauty" and "vast stores of knowledge". Finally, after Lermurick had crossed off the final item from his list and thrown it angrily into the fire, he drafted a brand new list. He took out a sheet of paper and wrote at the very top in big, fine letters: "She must love me and think that I am great and wonderful". He drew a check box beside this qualification and folded the paper careful and placed in a safe place. With new resolve and less qualifications to hamper him, Lemurick was confident that he could find a woman to be his. Days turned into months and eventually Lemurick found himself at graduation time with a degree in a field he cared little for and no woman to love him. He had failed DecidingFate. Because he had cared little about his career and chased after a person who apparently didn't exist, he had defaulted to perhaps the most common and undesired course of schooling. Lemurick tore up his final list and sat with his head in his hands. He felt as empty as the dorm room he was sitting in. He resolved to forget all others but himself and to live for the sole purpose of finding the one thing that made him happiest in any given moment. Suddenly feeling very alive, Lemurick got up and walk toward the nearest city.

Lemurick pt5

Lemurick embarked on DecidingFate with anxiety and excitement. For once in his life he seemed to be important and wanted. Many voices clamoured for his ear, though none cared for his well-being, but rather for their own gain. These people flattered and gave generously for a season in hopes of keeping you and promptly forgot their promises once they had you. At first Lemurick became foolishly puffed up with a false lie of self-importance and stupidly followed them, all of them. He chased any leader who offered him bribe or promise of fame. Fortunately, this did not last long as Lemurick came to see the truth. Trying to follow everyone would do nothing but keep him where he was now: in a terrible state of anonymity. He was at a loss. As he was not exceptional at anything, what could he pursue to lift himself from this pit of horrible commonness? He became bitterly depressed because he could see no way out.

Lemurick continued like this for some time until he concluded that since he had not been blessed by luck (that cruel force that unfairly gives everything to some and nothing to others) to have any talents or good qualities, he would resign to it. He decided now that he would never be seen as great by the masses. He must devote his energies to finding and keeping just one person who will see his greatness. This seemed to him to be one the cleverest plans that any common man could ever devise. He was quite pleased with himself and started to write a list of qualities this person must have, both to be liked by Lemurick and to find himself likable. Having fashioned the list so (which erred, as such lists often do, on the side of being far too picky and unattainable-there existed no person either Lemurick's time or now who could live up to such a list), Lemurick set off to search among his colleagues for a woman who would love him and see him as great all his life. The eager Lemurick could not have foreseen the difficulties in this task. It seemed to him a simple and wonderful job, but it turned out to be horrible, exhausting and very defeating. No woman wanted to connect herself with him as he would not add but rather subtract from her own pursuit of greatness.

Lemurick pt4

Lemurick grew older, as many boys are privileged to do, and went to college. In Lemurick's world college was termed DecidingFate because they believed one's fate was decided by this school. You could never be anything of value if you did not go to DecidingFate, and if you did not do well in it you were considered worthless. But what constituted worth at DecidingFate? Two circles of thought were prevalent and widely accepted. There were others, but in a world where majority ruled, only the most prominent really mattered. The First circle deemed brains to be pointless and boring. To truly be different and stand out you must prove yourself great through wit, cunning, athletics and beauty. The second circle discounted those things as foolish and fleeting and focused, rather, on intelligence and academic accomplishments. They fought with each other constantly. Once in a great while there arose a student who fit into both categories. Those privileged enough to have wit, athleticism, beauty, and intelligence enjoyed a heightened status of importance and were certainly destined to live a life of splendor and greatness.

College was a time for a person to start a fresh. If you were popular in your town you might go to a school nearby where people would know your name and give you deference. If you were unpopular but rich you could travel far away and forget your past. Lemurick was not unpopular, he was simply unknown. And he was not rich, so he did not travel far. He was given opportunity of studying anything he wanted, so long as the funds were present. Lemurick was excited but very anxious. This was his last chance. If he did not gain importance at DecidingFate he would be a nobody for his entire existence. The pressure was thick and overwhelming. Not surprisingly, the suicide rate for students his age was very high. As Lemurick left home, his mother cried silently and inwardly. She was worried, but she knew that he was not hers to keep. She was over swept with peace as she knelt once again to ask the One to watch over her son and show Himself to him.